Real Talk About The Future and How I’ve Been Feeling Lately

Hey, friend. I have an important message today, and its honestly very hard for me to write this post. But online and in real life, I try as hard as I can to be an open book, and as I stated in my last blog post, sometimes difficult conversations are the most important to have, and can lead us to great destinations.

I began this blog almost three years ago, when I was only fifteen years old. I can now say that I’m proud of how far it’s come, and that I’m thankful for all that I’ve learned in the process of becoming a fashion and lifestyle blogger. I so appreciate everyone who supports and reads my posts, or who sends me emails or direct messages telling me how my writing has impacted your life. That means the world to me.

But that being said, to be completely transparent with you, I have been struggling to create content that I’m passionate about. And truthfully, I see no point in continuing to force myself to create content that I’m not passionate about every week.

Aside from not feeling completely confident about my content, I can honestly say that I don’t think I’ve ever been more overwhelmed in a season of life than I am right now. For some context, I am currently a senior in high school. I’m in the middle of my last volleyball season. I’m knee deep in publishing a book (so. many. emails.). I’m drafting my third book. I watch sweet little kids two half days a week. I workout almost daily, and am trying to maintain a healthy lifestyle in the midst of all that’s going on in my life. And of course, I have relationships with people I love.

On top of all that, I’ve been creating weekly blog posts, which means shooting photos, (Hannah usually edits them which is a huge help!), uploading the photos, coming up with post ideas, writing the post, editing the post . . .

And guys. I had the realization this week that blogging is just not giving me life during this season.

As an author, I’ve noticed lately that when I write fiction, I can literally feel it giving me life, satisfaction, clarity, and fulfillment. I look forward to writing fiction every morning when I wake up, and usually plot scenes in my head to help me fall asleep.

But lately, blogging has been having the opposite effect on me. It’s another deadline. Another source of anxiety and criticism toward myself. It’s another thing on my plate that is just making me feel overwhelmed in the business of life. I’m not looking forward to my content every week right now. I’m actually stressing about it.

And honestly, that’s not how I want to spend my time or my life. I don’t what to spend time on things that I’m not passionate about anymore, when I could be spending that time with my friends, my family, or with God.

So I’m going to allow myself some time off from blogging. I don’t exactly know what the future will look like, but I’m going to keep praying about it. My website won’t be going anywhere, and I’ll still be very active on social media (@gabriellacatherineauthor), especially on Instagram. I love connecting with you guys there, and can say I do really love creating and posting content on that platform.

When I do start blogging again (although it might not be on a regular schedule), you’ll be the first to know if you sign up for my mailing list. I send out emails every time I have an update or publish a new blog post.

Thank you, again, for being here and listening to my thoughts! I know you’ll all be understanding, so thank you for that!

I hope you have an amazing day <3

Love,

Gabriella Catherine

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